Thursday, 12 December 2013

天平座的我~

天秤座終極完美分析(9/23-10/22)

優雅的天平在燈紅酒綠中微笑轉身,顧盼神采,灑脫如同水中的魚。他們與紅酒,水晶杯,晚禮服,鋼琴曲是那麼的相得益彰,漫不經意的吸引著公眾的眼光……
幾乎所有人都有這樣一種印象:

天平座的人善意、可親,愛交朋友。於是大家也由此認為天平是群居生物,必然是害怕獨處,喜歡熱鬧的。 

但,事實並不是表面看來那樣簡單。

的確,天平是個和平使者。在公眾場合可以很好地調節氣氛使之均衡。氣氛熱烈時,他們會沉靜的壓住陣腳;氣氛冷凝時,他們會運用不著痕跡的輕鬆幽默化解堅冰。總之他們不會隨波逐流去助長氣氛的冷熱,而是像用天平稱量物品一樣,加減砝碼,使之維持水平狀態。 

而他們在做這種加減的時候,動作是優雅的,態度是和悅的,看起來漫不經心不動聲色。實際上,他們是很有心計的人,儘管眾口難調,也可以找到一種萬全的方式來使全局和諧起來。

但是這並不是說他們喜歡主宰,只是因為他們看不得失衡,那會使他們如坐針氈。 

因此,儘管慵懶的天平座討厭麻煩,討厭得要命,他們還是會不由自主地擔負起調節的責任。也許正因如此,使得天平在公眾場合從未放鬆過自己。性格使他們承擔了不必要的責任,無可推卸。

他們不吝惜金錢,卻吝惜自由的時間和安靜的休閒時光。像所有風向星座一樣,他們喜歡自由,喜歡像風一樣誰也捉不住他。 

他們喜歡自在獨立的空間。就算你是他最好的朋友,也不要老和他粘在一起,你要知道他並不喜歡如此,儘管他不會直接說出來。你也得相信,你的天平座朋友也許半年也沒有音信,但是只要一見面,你還是他最好的朋友。因為他就是這種交友方式,你拿他怎麼辦?
"我懶得……"

這是天平座的口頭語。他們懶得出門,懶得聚會,懶得應酬……所以他們並不是很喜歡參加party。倒是寧願呆在家裡上網,看書,畫畫。他們自身是均衡的,一個人的均衡總比一群人的均衡來的容易。所以他們喜歡獨處。 
 

通常,天平座的人會給人一見如故的感覺,因為他們有著溫婉的微笑和優雅的舉止。對初次見面的人,天平座往往表現出自己最討人喜歡的一面:善解人意,大方, 誠懇,健談。但是這種熱情勁兒不會長久。冷漠何時到來取決於你與他交往的頻率。你越是粘得緊,他就冷得越快。因為他們喜歡"君子之交清淡如水"。不是他們 不喜歡同伴,而是他們和人交往更多地關注了對方的情緒,總想著照顧對方心情,不要發生衝突,所以感覺像是在工作一樣,無法真正的放鬆。 
 

較之對宮白羊座,天平是另一種獨立的個體。白羊是一種外在的獨立,內心是熱的;天平則是表面看似親和力很強,內心卻是任誰也無法融入的。天平的冷靜,連他 們自己也覺得驚訝。"我居然如此冷漠!太不可思議了……"他們審視自己的時候,感覺有點陌生。那是因為他們把內心世界掩飾得連自己都騙過了。 
 

他們控制情緒的能力太強了。最親近的人會感覺到,天平給人不露聲色的隔離感,有時會被埋怨"太冷靜了,我都不知道你在想什麼!" 

可是他們不是故意要隱瞞什麼,只是出於本能。一個連自己都騙過了的人,你還能要求他對你坦白什麼?
他們不喜歡歇斯底里,不喜歡痛哭失聲,不喜歡安慰別人也不怎麼喜歡被安慰。因為他們懂得,誰也無法真正理解另一個人。
天平,其實是很獨立的一個星座。他們在霓虹燈影裡微笑,在燈火闌珊處寂寞。他們叫你懂得:孤獨的最高境界是繁華。

或许害怕再次受伤,我选着不去想你
其实受伤的心真的好难补回去
我嫉妒你的一切
人生没有playback,so just keep moving without turning back
但我不断的回忆,只让我更不了解自己了
2014 对我再好些
我只想要快乐
那晚我很开心
谢谢
姜的还是老的辣!!!

Thursday, 24 October 2013

HEY WORLD

Hey World
 Take your passion and make it come true
 Hey World voice
 In journey
 A postcard a memory
 A photo the rare chance of seeing something beautiful
 A voice who everyone can hear it ( i hear your voice )
The world is too big, we can't estimate how large the world is even the scientific also..
 i'm too infinitesimal ..

 throwback that day it's unbeliever
 i really stayed at there for 5 days ..it;s a horrible dream for me but it's not it really happened ..
i can felt it how pain i'm suffer ?? how can i pretend i'm ok in front of my parent ,i just wonder why i'm the person .. but i don't complain or blame the other ..
.i need to face it .i need to become more stronger ... so i just pretend everything goes well but it's really hurt i'm struggle for those day my parent also too worry about me and can't hv a better sleep for all days and night i really felt sorry to them ...
 thanks for their supporting ,
thanks for their accompany
 and thank you for everything they give to me ...
 i really appreciated it i love my parents forever ..
 i promised i will take care of myself ,
i will also take care of both of you too don't worry i'm not a bad daughter i won't dump my parents ..
 the pain already gone now i need to have a healthy lifestyle ....

 i cry every night when i'm lying at there , i thinks a lot of things which i hv never think before ...what i'm suppose to do after the surgery ...i'm too scared to face it ..

 i cry but nobody knows
 i cry but i'm alone
 i cry but i'm hopeless

 1004 it changes my whole life i love my birthday very much ...
it's very precious for me thanks for god give me another opportunity
 my birthday is very special for me
 so i hope that every year of my birthday hv a lot of surprise things go well
 my dream is too far for me
 but i will try my best to achieve it
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Wednesday, 7 August 2013

活在当下

无内容
无感觉
无知觉
无意义
 无感情
 无。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 
不懂该写什么好。。 简单带出意思
现在我人在马六甲读书 很开心 认识到朋友 成绩也不错 比以前好一百倍 住离学校蛮远
走路去学校也闲 吃的选者多了很多 就这样

 现在假期
人在家乡
和家人聚聚
和朋友yamcha
 和自己约定要睡到够够
和自己约定一定要去旅行(虽然并没去到)
读下书
 看电视节目
 就这样

 生活就是如此简单及无趣
我向自己承若一定要背着行李环游世界
潇洒的和世界打声招呼
人生不是看你活着有多长短
而是看你活着精不精彩
所以做人要活的有意义
这样就已经尽了人生最大的责任
 活在当下

Monday, 10 June 2013

It's holiday "??

it's holiday ??
not sure ,i means i dunno ..
everyone seem like really enjoy their holiday but for me i need to do a lot of things 
the main problem now i face is my future
thanks god for giving back matrik to my sister ..
although that few days really like a shit ,i cry a lot ,(insufficient of water in my body)
anyway the problems had solve ..i hope my sister really can enjoy her study life at there ..
now!!how about me ...i really confuse should i continue but i had told the department that i would stop it and i also check out my room ady....
or i need to study at the other college ..ridiculous ...i dunno what should i do now ??
who can tell me ??nobody...
-yap,the reason i dunwan to continue is i soooo disappointed o f my result although i can pass all the paper ,my result just betwenn 50 or 60 above ..even 70 mark i also can't get it ..
-is that my expectation too high NO!!i study really hard but cannot means really cannot my talent just stop at there only ...
i need a break a long break to let me think what should i do the next step ...
if you are me >>will you continue or just change to the other course ??
i really scare i was the burden to my parent ...i really scare my decision was wrong ..who can give me the best decision for me ...god i need your help..will you lending your helping hand towards me ..will you ???

danger is real,fear can choose 
you want dead or survive depends on your fear 
don;t afraid of fear ...
calm down 
take a breath ...
i saw the blood mixing with the shinny sun i know it would not appear in front of me 
fear gone 
invisible ...
why you can become invisible in front of it 
take a look ...felt the air ,felt the temperature ,felt the land 
 

Tuesday, 2 April 2013

给一个特别的她~

给一个特别的她:
             
                    亲爱的洁怡,半年就这样过去了。。六月就要离开这烂透的学院。。
又要展开一个新的旅程。。想到考试一步一步的逼近,实在很大压力,好像乱叫一场,嚎哭一场。洁怡努力啊!昨天心血来潮预算了半年里用了多少结果是RM20000。好惊人的数字。
真的希望可以顺利进到师训。这样就可以帮家人减轻负担,还可以让妹妹去升学。三月过去了,四月降临了。时间过得多么快,上个星期去新加坡旅游真的好享受,好开心,幸好我最后决定去了,不然不能享受天伦之乐了呵呵~~好喜欢那边的环境,好干净,一垃圾只能在垃圾桶看到,到处都是干干净净,就像每天都有工人打扫。。

给一个特别的你:

                      亲爱的洁怡,做人要有自信,虽然真的很没有自信,不过还是要努力的很有自信。。自信真的很重要。。自信是什么,其实我不是很清楚。。哪怕有天自信会找上门来呢~笑容是自信吗??沟通是自信吗?哪晓得??只要现在的我开心就好,虽然现在的我并不开心。。不过勉强的让自己开心的过掉每一天定多那三个月,我就自由了。。








胡乱瞎篇的文章:


哟,韩正宇你在干嘛??拜托,我是女孩可不可以帮我取好听点的花名啊!那家伙总是这样的叫我实在受不了,为了报复我也帮他取了很动听的花名。李秀妍我在干嘛管你屁事!!
走开啦,你好烦。。哟,关心下你会克哦。。诶,明天我请你吃大餐要不要。这么好死,今天忘了吃药??是啊,明天我也会忘了吃药所以你要快快答应啊,不然明天我就吃药了!
当然要,你请吃喔,当然要吃个痛快。。

李秀妍!!你又迟到了,明明约了八点半,现在九点半了,还不来你在拉屎是吗??正宇啊,对不起啊~大塞车现在还在路上等多会好不好。。先生,现在下着雪诶,我冷得直发抖我给你五分钟,再不出现我面前我走人了。。嘟。。。喂,喂,!!正宇啊!!

吓,这正宇真的走了,等多几分钟都不可以。HAR!!!哦,你吓到我了原来还没走。冷吗,去买杯咖啡喝暖暖身体。咯,餐厅都关了,该吃什么。韩正宇!什么??把手放进我的衣袋里,我带你去吃糖水。哦~

这就是你介绍的糖水店?好冷清啊。。不要看小这老婆婆煮的糖水,可是一流的哦。只有有缘的人才能喝到老婆婆的糖水。什么有缘人瞎扯!






Thursday, 28 February 2013

罪恶感与泪水

每一天,我都在为我自己倒数


想太多!!是的我是一个超爱幻想的女孩。总把事情复杂化也不曾把它简单的去想。。
这样的毛病让我很困扰。。也让我流了许多不必要的泪水。。
我很爱面子所以不曾在任何人面前流泪,因为我并不想让人看见我虚弱的一面。。
我是坚强的小孩??不,我承认我是一个失败的女孩。。
我的未来就是后悔铺着去,我的将来肉眼也看不见。。
我真的对世界失去了信心。心灰了。。
我也对自己的能力更加灰心。。我真的是不能,无论我熬了多少的努力我也不会成功。
没有潜能,没有钱能,没有兴趣,就不会成功。。
可是我埋怨自己的任性,结果后果便是这样换来的是后悔以及失败。。
是我想太多吗??压力??都是自己给的压力。。
我不是那种爱勾心斗角的女人,但我却是那种想要的到存在感的人。。
我从不怀疑她的努力,我也替她感到很开心。。
但身边的小人和恶魔实在给我太多无形的压力。。甚至笑容也是那么的厌恶。。
头角上的恶魔脚,不容易被人发觉,但却在不明确的情况下展现了出来。。
人们对世界的期望到底是什么。。
天地下最大的事物又是什么。。
人们的内心是自己可以控制的或者被末些不明物体操纵着呢??

眼角里的泪水为什么会因情绪化而流出呢??
为什么上帝在制造人类事并没诠释眼泪的存在呢
我恨眼泪,因为泪水只会因人们在绝望时而流出。。
开心时会流出吗??无可否人少数的人会。。
在悲剧发生时泪水才会流出。。
是多么的可耻。。
悲剧前的一刻,和悲剧后的那一刻。。我们会否曾想过这类的问题吗??
问题天天都多,但解决问题的人又可否多吗??

一切都是人们内心的罪恶感使人们不能过得平稳。。
我彻底被罪恶感给击败了。。
痛与伤


Thursday, 21 February 2013



                      HE IS TOO HANDSOME!!



WARM BODIES<3

SUPPORT IT 



why you treat me like a bullsXXX
i really honest to wish you 
why you just can't treat me well
are you messaging with her so you treat me like this
just a few word to let me felt better
what are you thinking 
why i'm still loving you
a few words really hurt me 
i type so long with happiness
but you just ignore it 
love can change everything 
but why can't you just act a normal guy
why you just want be a special one
who ever want all the people admire you ,care about you
really upset 
this day really let me going crazy thinking of you
i always remember i must wish you
i must remember you 
but why can't you pick up the phone 
or reply with a joke to me
just let me felt better 
i will be felling better
it's still bleeding 
is that sound good
normally i will just react nothing happen but that days really make me felt abnormal
a crying day for me 
i never cry so much before 
but you appear in my life 
because of you i cry the whole night 
and day to day 
why i'm so crazy with you
i'm so annoying 
i can't believe 
i can't forgive you because you hurt me so many time although you do nothing
i can't let you down 
and that was the reason why i can't accept the other boy 
and can't loving the other because of you
this was the second night which was memorable you make me unhappy again 
i hate you 
but i still love you 

goodnight !!! 



Tuesday, 5 February 2013

二月!!!
来临了。。
新年也即将降临。。
虽然今年不能玩的太疯癫。。
不过我还是会好好享受这充满喜气洋洋的新年。。。

时间真的飞驰的很快
转眼间,我来到了第二个SEM 2
.。。而我的新roommate也很好
(i not need to face a rock again ..i can talk with somebody who really a human)
哈哈~她人真的很美,人品可以说是一流。。
她也改变了我不少,早睡早起一项都不是我的作风。。
但现在却是我的习惯了。。不这么爱读书的我也因她变得勤劳了许多。。
真的很感谢他。。、
和她在一起满舒服。。也很好聊。。。
谢谢上天为我找来了一个很不错的朋友
渐渐的我的朋友范围里也变得越来越大了。。
只是现在的我在为一个问题困扰着
不过既然那问题还没开始
那又何必现在去干扰它呢??
就让时间带着我走吗。。
我相信船到桥头直燃直。。。

really appreciate my dear roommate thank you everything ...
hope our relationship will maintain it forever..
really i can say that now the stone really disappear in front of me
although it seem like it never left me before ,really it's always hide itself to become visible
so i just play a role with it ..
thank you it like to play such game- hide and sick
i will become more happy without it
it was not my lucky star or anything
sorry for talking so rude to you-stone but this is the truth
if you never try to fit yourself in ,why you stay along in here
stone i told you before it must threw away all the memory which inside your empty brain
anyway i hope you can find a place which more suit you
bye bye stone...welcome flower....


from :many troubles girl (leng lui kit yee)
wahahahahahahahahah!!!!!



i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really  really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really OK!!!

Thursday, 17 January 2013

tomorrow will be a nice day~

tomorrow and tomorrow
always trust yourself
never say never the world will still moving around
although we know ,everybody know m'sia is a bullshXX
MONEY LAUDEring??
OMG 
2013 will be ended soon !!!!
haiz..gonna start my new life at the other country if i got a lot of money to migrate i will choose country which is peace and free from bias...

ok 
first congratulation to my friends xuan and kuan ...
they will study at Singapore soon
so miss them ..
but at here i must say something to AMY 
don't be lose heart ,don't give up easily 
tomorrow will be a better day..
nothing can block our dream..
dream come true~~~~

gambateh for all my friend 
especially you 
i really worry about u 
please take care of urself
don't think too much 
just do it what u want
i will be standing here always support u whenever what decision u make <3

LIFE LIKE A WAR!!!!




Wednesday, 2 January 2013

2013!!!!
A new life for me i must appreciate it 
although it seem difficult for me but anyway i would never give up 

flashing back my memory 2012
too many things had happen 
i could't forget it 
but the life was that 
i must admit it 
GAMBATEH!!!

新的一年
新的希望
我又重生了
REBORN 
2012 确实发生了许多事情
也是我人生里做了许多抉择的一年
我也长大了
面对许多事情真的必须淡然的接受

游了那么久好不容易上岸
却再次被逼游下水
好不容易有机会
却再次被自尊心打败了
好不容易的聚会
却并没有想象的开心

这些好不容易真的不容易
鼓起那么点的勇气
却被激烈的打败

2012
也好不容易的挨过了
看着遥远的自己
才发现
什么都不是的自己
好灰心

有个人突然问了我一个问题:
诶,如果你约了人他不来你会不爽吗??
这问题我爽快的回答不会!!

但回头想了想其实

新的一年我必须加把劲
努力的完成猫咪
未来的事我不想想太多就到时才打算吧

最近迷上了
running man 

实在很好看
深深的被迷住了
一直在追、

实在太搞笑了
真的是no.1的综艺节目啊
特别喜欢他
太可爱了
他的告白让我受不了
快晕了哈哈


1 月 1 日
我的称若失败了
并没成功

算了
过去让它过去

加油
洁怡
新的一年
将会带来不同的你

wohooooooooooooooooooooo~


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