I'm your man ....man..

sometime i hope i am a boy caz i think tat a boy will not like girl who hv many sentiment ...

sometime i hope the the time can go bac to the past ..

sometime i felt homesick really miss my family

sometime i hope i hv a boyfriend who can protect me..

sometime i felt lonely..

sometime I missed a lot of opportunities。。

sometime i felt i lost a lot of friend ..

ya~i'm suffering now ..

i heard my aunt said my mom always missed me she will cry when i want to leave my hometown n bac 2 the big n dangerous city..

ya~i know i let my family felt disappointing n sad ..

but i can't do anythings to help them n i can't reduce their burden ..I have increase a lot of  suffer 2 them..

so i eat less drink less to save money..i don't wan to waste money caz i know it's difficult to support me..

now my heart felt pain ..i can't properly control my emotions..

i got a bad result even not good at all..

i don't hv study mood n totally influenced my study mood 

i..

ya if i was a man or a boy i think it's more ..

ya..live like a boy

play like a boy

talk like a boy

study like a boy

all of the things juz act like a boy

caz i felt tat boy can easily hide their emotions n nobody will see it or felt it..

they juz pretend themselves nothing happen but actually they r suffering ...

so many years aldy i missed the moment when i spent my whole time wif my friend n family 

hanging out wif them let me felt more comfortable and suit myself into the life..

but now everything's has change ..

i must be strong

i must study hard 

i must be careful

ya~i must be independent to survive 

please god let me felt more better in my new life style don't let me cry aldy 

i always cry caz i felt homesick .i felt i'm a burden to my family

i felt i'm wrong to make such a decision 

a bad decision who make me suffer in my life

please let me go ,let me felt more happy ,

please don't emo again i hate the feeling 。。

everything will be ok right ?? 

ya everything will be ok ,hey go to sleep lar study lar 

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