Thursday, 28 February 2013

罪恶感与泪水

每一天,我都在为我自己倒数


想太多!!是的我是一个超爱幻想的女孩。总把事情复杂化也不曾把它简单的去想。。
这样的毛病让我很困扰。。也让我流了许多不必要的泪水。。
我很爱面子所以不曾在任何人面前流泪,因为我并不想让人看见我虚弱的一面。。
我是坚强的小孩??不,我承认我是一个失败的女孩。。
我的未来就是后悔铺着去,我的将来肉眼也看不见。。
我真的对世界失去了信心。心灰了。。
我也对自己的能力更加灰心。。我真的是不能,无论我熬了多少的努力我也不会成功。
没有潜能,没有钱能,没有兴趣,就不会成功。。
可是我埋怨自己的任性,结果后果便是这样换来的是后悔以及失败。。
是我想太多吗??压力??都是自己给的压力。。
我不是那种爱勾心斗角的女人,但我却是那种想要的到存在感的人。。
我从不怀疑她的努力,我也替她感到很开心。。
但身边的小人和恶魔实在给我太多无形的压力。。甚至笑容也是那么的厌恶。。
头角上的恶魔脚,不容易被人发觉,但却在不明确的情况下展现了出来。。
人们对世界的期望到底是什么。。
天地下最大的事物又是什么。。
人们的内心是自己可以控制的或者被末些不明物体操纵着呢??

眼角里的泪水为什么会因情绪化而流出呢??
为什么上帝在制造人类事并没诠释眼泪的存在呢
我恨眼泪,因为泪水只会因人们在绝望时而流出。。
开心时会流出吗??无可否人少数的人会。。
在悲剧发生时泪水才会流出。。
是多么的可耻。。
悲剧前的一刻,和悲剧后的那一刻。。我们会否曾想过这类的问题吗??
问题天天都多,但解决问题的人又可否多吗??

一切都是人们内心的罪恶感使人们不能过得平稳。。
我彻底被罪恶感给击败了。。
痛与伤


Thursday, 21 February 2013



                      HE IS TOO HANDSOME!!



WARM BODIES<3

SUPPORT IT 



why you treat me like a bullsXXX
i really honest to wish you 
why you just can't treat me well
are you messaging with her so you treat me like this
just a few word to let me felt better
what are you thinking 
why i'm still loving you
a few words really hurt me 
i type so long with happiness
but you just ignore it 
love can change everything 
but why can't you just act a normal guy
why you just want be a special one
who ever want all the people admire you ,care about you
really upset 
this day really let me going crazy thinking of you
i always remember i must wish you
i must remember you 
but why can't you pick up the phone 
or reply with a joke to me
just let me felt better 
i will be felling better
it's still bleeding 
is that sound good
normally i will just react nothing happen but that days really make me felt abnormal
a crying day for me 
i never cry so much before 
but you appear in my life 
because of you i cry the whole night 
and day to day 
why i'm so crazy with you
i'm so annoying 
i can't believe 
i can't forgive you because you hurt me so many time although you do nothing
i can't let you down 
and that was the reason why i can't accept the other boy 
and can't loving the other because of you
this was the second night which was memorable you make me unhappy again 
i hate you 
but i still love you 

goodnight !!! 



Tuesday, 5 February 2013

二月!!!
来临了。。
新年也即将降临。。
虽然今年不能玩的太疯癫。。
不过我还是会好好享受这充满喜气洋洋的新年。。。

时间真的飞驰的很快
转眼间,我来到了第二个SEM 2
.。。而我的新roommate也很好
(i not need to face a rock again ..i can talk with somebody who really a human)
哈哈~她人真的很美,人品可以说是一流。。
她也改变了我不少,早睡早起一项都不是我的作风。。
但现在却是我的习惯了。。不这么爱读书的我也因她变得勤劳了许多。。
真的很感谢他。。、
和她在一起满舒服。。也很好聊。。。
谢谢上天为我找来了一个很不错的朋友
渐渐的我的朋友范围里也变得越来越大了。。
只是现在的我在为一个问题困扰着
不过既然那问题还没开始
那又何必现在去干扰它呢??
就让时间带着我走吗。。
我相信船到桥头直燃直。。。

really appreciate my dear roommate thank you everything ...
hope our relationship will maintain it forever..
really i can say that now the stone really disappear in front of me
although it seem like it never left me before ,really it's always hide itself to become visible
so i just play a role with it ..
thank you it like to play such game- hide and sick
i will become more happy without it
it was not my lucky star or anything
sorry for talking so rude to you-stone but this is the truth
if you never try to fit yourself in ,why you stay along in here
stone i told you before it must threw away all the memory which inside your empty brain
anyway i hope you can find a place which more suit you
bye bye stone...welcome flower....


from :many troubles girl (leng lui kit yee)
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